The Loss of a Loved One

Dealing with loss is never easy. They say that if something happens to you enough times, it get easier. Not in this case. 

I have been working for MidPen for going on 4 years now. I have forged some strong bonds with people, one of which with, Benjamin Arcangle. I didn't know him outside of work (which is a shame), but at work he was a character. Always laughing and smiling, even on his most frustrating days. I wish that I had gotten to know him outside of work. Because the things I learned about him today, were things that I would have loved to learn about him, coming from him. 

1. He was married and had been with his partner for 10 years. 

2. He lived in Hawaii.

3. He was great at playing the guitar and singing

4. He was part of a huge family, and was very family oriented.

5. He did Indonesian Traditional Dance and also studied theArts in Indonesia. 

6. He got his BA in History and Asian Art History (something like that).

7. He enjoyed being the host of family gatherings. 

8. He loved going on adventures. 

There is much more, but those are just a few things. He touched so many peoples lives. Pushing them to be better, sharing his knowledge, being a great companion and humanitarian. I will forever remember him. He has taught me to:

1. Don't take crap from anyone. 

2. Do it yourself, don't wait in things to go through it's normal flow. 

3. Take risks. 

4. Don't complain unless you have an idea of how to make it better. 

5. Laugh and smile thoughout your day, no matter what kind of day you are having. 

6. Spread love, kindness, and knowledge. 

7. Be passionate. 

I can't believe he is gone. I will miss him dearly, and he is certainly, one of a kind. 

So... The loss of someone is never easy. You will always miss them and always be reminded of them. Just live your life to the fullest, as that's what they would want us to do. They are watching over us, guiding us, protecting us. 

Death is Nothing at All

Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away to the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other, 
That, we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect.
Without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight? 

I am but waiting for you.
For an interval.
Somewhere. Very near.
Just around the corner.

All is well. 

Henry Scott Holland

I Think I Need a Career Change

Currently I work for a Non-Profit Affordable Housing Developer/Property Management company in the Accounting Department. If you would have asked me 10 years ago, "What do you see yourself doing in the future?" I most likely would have never said, "Work in Accounting". The job is a necessary evil, every company needs some kind of accounts person. My only experience with Accounting is this job, I have not had previous experience in Accounting. I have been lucky enough to fall into some great jobs, and I have gained some great experience. On the other hand, I do see myself as being less marketable because;

1. The position I hold is entry level with no advancement opportunity
2. I don't have a lot of college education 

Yes, I am lacking confidence in my skills. I have started looking through job listings, and I get discouraged after reading the qualifications. I am full of BS, but I don't have a BS or BA. I know that I must go back to school, and I need to stop making excuses. My real question is, how do I figure out what I want to do as a career? I love to help people, collaborate, I am a stickler for SOP, I take initiative, I am a team player, etc... Give me some idea's on what you think I should look into as a career.

<3Angie 

Why I Have Started This Blog

Hello All,

My name is Angelica "Angie". I have lived in California all my life, specifically the SF Bay Area/East Bay Area. Here we enjoy very beautiful weather. To be honest, we are very spoiled here in the Bay Area. We don't get very harsh weather. To us, 50 degrees fahrenheit is freezing.

The reason that I am starting this BLOG is to share all the RANDOM things in my life.

Happenings/Findings

Adventures

Likes & Dislikes

Thoughts

Lifestyle

etc...

I also want to start archiving things. Life is full of so many random moments, and I want to be able to go back to something and remember them. Life passes us by so fast. You then stop and wonder, "Where did all the time go?" I am almost 30 years old (I still have a few more years, but I am rounding up) and I feel like my journey is just now beginning. I feel like this is the time in my life where things are just going to start happening, good things. And I don't want to forget a moment of it.

Some things that I will be writing about soon are:

Becoming a healthier me.
Finding my career.
My boyfriend going through a Firefighter Academy.
          How I help him prepare.
          What he is going through.
How I treat my face.
Outdoor Activities.
etc... 

I hope that in creating this blog I can teach people a thing or two and keep myself from forgetting all the wonderful things that I am so blessed to experience.

<3 Angie